What I can do, for now...
As I prepare for the birth of our third child life seems a bit crazy right now. The beautiful thing is that it seems crazy in theory not necessarily in actual activity. When I think about the list of things I would like done before the end of September (Mia's arrival, boys start preschool, and football season for Nick) I get frantic but then I take a step back, slightly lower my expectations, and appreciate what I can get done today.
There is so much to do for Mia. I am busy discussing, reading and writing a birth plan yet all the while fully knowing it could be thrown out the window. I have a huge stack of clothes to sort and wash yet fully knowing all she needs are a few sleepers and diapers for a while. Hospital preregistration, hospital bag packing, etc. are just some more things that "should be done" that in reality will work itself out. So, Mia, today I choose to remember my prenatal vitamin and to add to your pile the "baby legs" I made you a few days ago.
There is so much to do for Dom. My eldest, most independent, most exuberant child. My sweet child that I have such little grace for because it's like holding up a mirror to my own personality. He starts preschool at the end of September, this will be a huge transition for him. I have no doubt he will LOVE being around his peers (he gets along GREAT with other kids) and no doubt he will love the new challenges and things he will learn. I do however fear the transition of authority. Yet ANOTHER care give in his life to guide and nurture him. I suppose it has to happen sooner or later and better now in small doses than all day all week all at one time. I am working on creating his Life Book. This is a book that is written in 4 year old language about his life before we met him. It's my way to tell him about his past, to help answer some identity questions he's been having, and to tell him I love ALL of him even the things that have hurt him before. This book must be done before Mia arrives or it will be another 2 years before it comes! But, again, today is only a day and I can only do so much. So, my Dommer, today I will take to you to your first therapy session so you can continue to work though some of your fears, hurts, and anxieties as we transition through the next two months.
There is so much to do for Eli. He is currently and has always been (even in his foster homes) the baby of the family. He takes pride in his cuteness, sweetness, and ability to charm. He is in constant need of extra snuggles, kisses, encouragement, and smiles. Whenever there are kids around younger than him there is no doubt jealousy for the attention they receive. Along with completing Eli's life book I need to double up on the loving for this child. So, for today when we are all 4 at the park, or playing in the sprinklers in the yard Eli gets extra snuggles and encouraging words.
So, to my 2 children and soon to be three I pray that God would guide me on how to love you deeply and meet your precious needs daily. That I could learn to maintain a presence of peace despite your so very different stages of life, love, and development. Being a mother is hard, so please give me grace.
There is so much to do for Mia. I am busy discussing, reading and writing a birth plan yet all the while fully knowing it could be thrown out the window. I have a huge stack of clothes to sort and wash yet fully knowing all she needs are a few sleepers and diapers for a while. Hospital preregistration, hospital bag packing, etc. are just some more things that "should be done" that in reality will work itself out. So, Mia, today I choose to remember my prenatal vitamin and to add to your pile the "baby legs" I made you a few days ago.
There is so much to do for Dom. My eldest, most independent, most exuberant child. My sweet child that I have such little grace for because it's like holding up a mirror to my own personality. He starts preschool at the end of September, this will be a huge transition for him. I have no doubt he will LOVE being around his peers (he gets along GREAT with other kids) and no doubt he will love the new challenges and things he will learn. I do however fear the transition of authority. Yet ANOTHER care give in his life to guide and nurture him. I suppose it has to happen sooner or later and better now in small doses than all day all week all at one time. I am working on creating his Life Book. This is a book that is written in 4 year old language about his life before we met him. It's my way to tell him about his past, to help answer some identity questions he's been having, and to tell him I love ALL of him even the things that have hurt him before. This book must be done before Mia arrives or it will be another 2 years before it comes! But, again, today is only a day and I can only do so much. So, my Dommer, today I will take to you to your first therapy session so you can continue to work though some of your fears, hurts, and anxieties as we transition through the next two months.
There is so much to do for Eli. He is currently and has always been (even in his foster homes) the baby of the family. He takes pride in his cuteness, sweetness, and ability to charm. He is in constant need of extra snuggles, kisses, encouragement, and smiles. Whenever there are kids around younger than him there is no doubt jealousy for the attention they receive. Along with completing Eli's life book I need to double up on the loving for this child. So, for today when we are all 4 at the park, or playing in the sprinklers in the yard Eli gets extra snuggles and encouraging words.
So, to my 2 children and soon to be three I pray that God would guide me on how to love you deeply and meet your precious needs daily. That I could learn to maintain a presence of peace despite your so very different stages of life, love, and development. Being a mother is hard, so please give me grace.
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